One step forward, two steps back, as the song says, "you never get anywhere like that". That's the way I'm feeling right now.
We have been planning for the future. We have set dates by which we would like to be on the road, full timing in an RV. We thought we had finally made a choice as to the type of RV and an approximate idea as to our budget. Then, we read some more articles and ordered more books. Now we're back at the question of Class A or Class C?
More storage in a Class A? But if we get rid of our stuff, will we really need extra storage space?
The idea of the bed over the cab in the Class C is appealing to both of us. It seems like the perfect "extra" space where one or the other of us can get away to read quietly or listen to their iPod.
Perhaps I'm being too rigid in my thinking. Perhaps I need to relax a little and stop being so focused on making the 'correct' choices. I spent nine years in therapy trying to undo a lifetime of black or white thinking and sometimes it seems as if I learned very little in those nine years!
Some of the current angst is brought on by an ad in our local Craigslist. It is a 31', 2001 Class C with 40000 miles, being offered for a very reasonable price. My panic is being caused by 1) my fear that we will miss the RV that is meant for us and by my inability to act and 2) my worry that we will love it, but will be unable to secure the required financing. Fear and worry the two biggest bugaboos to my decision making process! How I wish I were one of those spontaneous folks who just go with the flow and make adjustment as they go.
So why am I so locked into the mindset that every choice has to be the right one? Why not call Mr Angelo, make an appointment to go see and drive the local RV? One step at a time ... If it seems correct for us, then the next step will be to visit our bank ... Maybe by seeing and driving this Class C we'll also know whether a class C is right for us.
OK, I think I'm feeling a little better...one step at a time.